Yogi Cameron The One Plan Week 5 and 6 Review

So I am still keeping up my Yogi Cameron plan kind of. I STILL haven’t lost any weight in spite of my Spartan diet. I have had some cheat days but I would have expected at least some weight loss.  Why is my body holding on to its weight?

On the spiritual side these two weeks have been about non-stealing. By this Yogi Cameron means not just literal stealing but things like cheating on your taxes and taking someone’s parking space. I’ve realised I’m a pretty honest person as I don’t do any of these things. This is something I can be proud of at last. I am ethical. I am honest. I have empathy. This is all good for my spiritual growth.

I have been feeling better. I have cut down my portions and now I have even stopped having rice. So I am existing on fruit and vegetables mostly with vast amounts of herbal tea. I have had a few cheat days. Husband has this effect on me. He encourages me to drink wine and takes me out to lunch to places that never have anything healthy on the menu.

I have massively upped my exercise regime. I am doing yoga and then HIIT and then weight training with dumb bells. I am only doing the weight training three times a week but the other exercise every day except Sunday. This is as well as dog walking which is often miles and miles around Norfolk lanes. My legs ache most of the time.

I am also meditating and praying daily.

I have upped my productivity massively and managed to finish my novel. It just needs editing now and adding to. I am quite pleased with it but it still needs some work.

I have also started my MSc in Psychology at the Open University. It is brilliant so far and I amr really interested in it. I have sent in my first essay.

I have also started a course in Hypnotherapy training. I am really hoping this could be a new career for me. It will take me ten months. I really enjoyed the first weekend and I got some compliments. Maybe I will actually be good at this. I am hopeful. The course was very relaxed and supportive. It was right for me. My anxiety melted away.

My depression is being held at bay. My strategy has been to force myself to do things even though I don’t feel like it. This has been effective and I feel better afterwards. I still haven’t got to the stage of joy yet but I am smiling more.

I have had another intervention as I have been going to CBT sesssions with the NHS. It’s not really therapy. I sit in a room  with other people and listen to a lecture on CBT from a very young man. Then I get a booklet and tasks to do at home. There are some useful ideas in it but you can tell it’s just trying to deal with people on the cheap. One size does not fit all in my view.

I still have the problem of no income. I do need to work on this. I do everything to avoid applying for jobs. I think it must be anxiety from my previous experiences. I much prefer doing courses. I still want to work for myself ultimately. Of course I want to be a writer but unless I have a bestseller I am not going to make any money. Being a therapist would be good too. I would like to help people cope with their problems. I have had so many issues it would be lovely to help other people not go into the depths like I did.

I have had to take a long look at myself and there are still lots of things wrong. It’s painful to examine your inner life. I still have very little in the way of a social network. I feel totally alienated from family but let’s face it I always did anyway. I can’t do anything right as far as they are concerned. Maybe being reclusive is my natural state. Of course I would love to have a perfect life like people in a TV ad but maybe I’m just not made that way.

I have felt a longing for children over the last few weeks. Sadly I think I am too old. When I was younger the time never felt right. I have a lot of regrets about the past. I suppose you can regret everything or regret nothing. I am finally waking up and facing my fears.

Onwards!

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Coming soon – new novel – Syria-A Woman’s Tale

BOOK BLURB

 

Will the girl who left England for ISIS ever escape their grip and find her way out?

 

This is Molly’s tale. She’s an ordinary student from Manchester who falls in love with the impossible good looking and wealthy Taj, a British born Pakistani. Things take a turn for the worse after their marriage and Molly finds out Taj has fled to Syria to fight for ISIS. Desperately worried she sets out on a journey to find him. Trapped in Syria things don’t turn out as Molly expects. She must try to escape with the help of the mysterious Kahil…

 

This is a story of love, of loss, of war, of spirituality found, lost and regained. It is a story of life itself.

New novel: Syria – A Woman’s Tale

I have finally finished my second novel. It’s title is : Syria – A Woman’s Tale. It’s about a girl called Molly from Manchester who goes to Syria to find her husband who she suspects has joined ISIS.  It’s taken me a long time to write as I kept breaking off to do other things. It still needs some tweaking. So now I have the decision of what to do with it. I could attempt to get a deal or I could self-publish again.  I am still deciding.  I would love a proper publisher this time.  Here’s hoping.

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 28 Monthly review

Weight 63.8 kg Weight gain

Breakfast: apple

Lunch: vegetarian curry with rice

Snack: dairy free Victoria sponge

Dinner: none

Meditation 20 mins

Exercise: yoga 30 mins, dog walking 1 hour

So I have been doing The One Plan for a month now. I have not kept to it strictly. I have cheated a lot. I have cut out alcohol, caffeine, meat, fish, milk, yoghurt and cheese. That’ s quite a bit. I have upped my exercise. I do feel more alert and I have more energy. I am still not fully well. I am sure my energy levels are not at normal levels and I still sometimes have low mood. In general I am happier though. I am not as productive as I would like to be. SoI have a long way to go but I see chinks of light. I haven’t lost any weight overall so I have to work on reducing calories. I have started to catch my negative thoughts and change them. Meditation has helped me feel calm. I have worked on honesty. I feel spiritual and that I am living ethically. Today was a lovely day out in Cambridge where I went to the Degas exhibition. I felt very tired afterwards. I am healing. I have to keep it up. 

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 27

Weight: 60.7 kg. Significant weight loss

Breakfast: tropical fruit smoothie with almond milk

Lunch: vegetable soup

Dinner: cheese and onion pasty and fried potatoes

Meditation: 20 minutes

Exercise: 30 mins yoga, 30 mins weight training, 1 hour dog walk

Very pleased that my weight is finally going down. Started off with good food choices but dinner was not so good as I was out in town. My local town depresses me a little. Had my first group therapy CBT session for depression. Mixed feelings about it. Mood was medium. Did not get any work done which makes me cross with myself. Must try harder.

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 26

Weight: 63 kg

Breakfast: tropical fruit smoothie with almond milk

Lunch: bean chilli with courgettes and rice

Dinner: two pieces of dark chocolate

Exercise: 30 mins yoga, 30 mins weight training Short cut to Shred, dog walking 1 hour

Meditation: 20 mins

Mood pretty good. Energy medium. 

Quite a productive day. Did quite a bit of Open University work. I feel frustrated at my lack of weight loss as I am averaging less than 1000 calories a day. The diet is carby but being vegan how can it be anything less? I feel calm. On the whole I think I have improved mentally a lot. My meditation is improving. On watching a video by a Tibetan monk I have learned you should meditate with your eyes open. Getting better with baby steps. Still proud of being caffeine and alcohol free.

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 25

Weight: 62.3 kg

Breakfast: avocado, fried tomatoes, fried mushrooms in olive oil

Lunch: Thai Green curry with tofu and basmati rice

Dinner: one piece dark chocolate

Exercise: yoga 30 mins, weight training Short cut to Shred 30 mins, dog walking 1 hour

Felt good today. Quite energised. Lots of exercise achieved. Fairly productive in the afternoon working on my psychology postgrad. Tried hard to cut my food intake down. Mood was reasonably good. Diet all vegan.

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 24

Weight: 63.2 kg Slight weight loss

Breakfast: almond milk, banana, cocoa powder, honey

Lunch: nut roast, broccoli, roast potatoes

Dinner: fried potatoes, carrot cake

Exercise: weight training 30 mins, walking 2 hours

Meditation: 20 mins

My husband decided I need to add weight training into my exercise regime so I started Short cut to Shred. Now I am aching all over. I also went to the beach for a long dog walk. I am proud I was predominantly vegan today apart from the honey.I started off with the best of intentions not to eat too much but I did. 

The theme is honesty. I haven’t told any lies this week but then I haven’t had much occasion to. I need to learn to be honest with myself. What do I really want? I am not sure I even know. I need to find fulfilling work. I have started to move towards this with my courses. I need to improve my relationship. I am at a loss at how to do this. I also would like some real friends but not fake ones. This is also tricky. I should join things but the right things. 

My energy has improved considerably and my mood is good. I am virtually a teetotal vegan. Who would ever have thought it?

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 23

Weight: 63.8 kg

Breakfast: fried egg, four slices white toast and butter

Lunch: almond milk, cocoa powder, honey, tropical fruit

Dinner: none

Exercise: yoga 30 mins, 1 hour dog walk

Meditation: 20 mins

Slight weight gain. Getting nowhere with my diet. Trying to drastically reduce calories. Very productive day with lots of university work done. Finding my course really interesting. Mood was quite good. 

Yogi Cameron The One Plan Day 22

Weight: 63.2  kg 

Breakfast: fried egg 4 slices toast with butter

Lunch: tempeh ribs, sweetcorn, vegan coleslaw, vegan potato salad, mini doughnuts with dipping sauce

Dinner: none

Exercise: 30 mins yoga, 20 mins HIT routine, walking 1 hour

Meditation: 20 mins

Back on the straight and narrow today kind of. I had a day out in Norwich so lunch was at a vegan restaurant called The Tipsy Vegan. Felt very holy and then ruined it all by having doughnuts for dessert. Then a trip to the cinema to see Bladerunner 2049 which was very good. I felt happy today which for me is a big thing. I had no alcohol nor caffeine.