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Today I have been thinking about romance. As a novelist of twisted romances I suppose I should be thinking about it all the time.
I have found real romance to be very rare. Having been married for twenty-one years there isn’t much room for it any more.
I always remember something that happened to me which was as close to a truly romantic gesture I can think of. I was at university and sitting in the library reading room. I was a first year. I went away to get a book and came back. When I sat down there was a note on my desk.
It said: You are absolutely beautiful and I’m not one for absolutes.
I looked around but I couldn’t see anyone who could have left it. I thought about asking the girl opposite if she had seen who it was but I didn’t. I knew it was someone in my Philosophy class because we had been studying Plato’s absolute forms that week.
I didn’t ever find out who it was.
This sort of thing doesn’t usually happen to me and men don’t normally tell me I’m beautiful except my husband who probably does it because he thinks he has to. I always wonder why whoever it was didn’t reveal himself to me. It was a gift given without hope of return. Now that is romantic.
It’s a beautiful memory.
Week 6 of the Yogi Cameron diet is the same as Week 5. The spiritual emphasis is on not stealing. The diet is the same. I have kept to it about eighty per cent of the time. I have still been drinking alcohol which I am still annoyed with myself about. As of today I have eradicated all alcohol from the house so as of today I haven’t had any. I have taken the pledge. Food wise I have been doing pretty well and eating healthy whole foods. I notice when out and about how difficult it is to get healthy food in town. Most choices seem to be really unhealthy and don’t fit with ayurvedic principles.
I haven’t been feeling well this week. I don’t think it’s to do with the diet. Maybe I am coming down with something. I am not sure if it’s mental or physical or a bit of both. The week has been full of minor irritations. I am facing up to a lot of my demons and I know this means I have to make changes in my life. I need to change the way my mind works. It is a lot of work and sometimes overwhelming. I am hoping I will be better when I get through to the other side.
I have been reading more about ayurveda. There are a lot of conflicting opinions as the diet comes from ancient Vedic texts which are thousands of years old. Some ayurvedic diets allow meat and fish but Yogi Cameron does not. I am doing the more strict type. The emphasis is on fresh foods that are grown locally and organically. Eggs are almost never mentioned. I have read this is because they are considered dirty and low because they come out of a chicken’s bottom. I have still been having the odd egg. Most Indian recipes with eggs in them stem from the Raj and the British influence.
Here’s hoping to a return to health and well being next week.
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I had a health check this week as I am a new patient at the surgery. I am in perfect health according to the nurse. This is good news. She said I am not overweight but for myself I would like to lose about a stone. Frustratingly, I still haven’t lost any weight. I can’t blame Yogi Cameron though. I can only blame myself as I keep cheating.
The diet is the same as the other weeks. The spiritual emphasis is on not stealing. This doesn’t just mean actual stealing but other types like stealing a parking space. I must admit I don’t do this type of behaviour really so I can feel success in this area.
I have been feeling out of balance this week and as a result I have been eating far too much and I have drunk too much alcohol. I am feeling really annoyed with myself for my lack of willpower. I have been eating all healthy whole foods but just too much of them. I find myself ravenously hungry in the evening and that’s when I cheat by having a piece of bread.
I have had lots of thoughts from the past that make me feel bad. I think this is part of the healing process to get it all out of your head. It’s hard though. I have kept up my yoga, meditation and praying. I have slept well. I have had a reasonable amount of energy but not as much as I would like.
I need to get my head into the space where I follow the diet properly and then I can really evaluate it.
Another peaceful week has whizzed by in rural Norfolk. I was busy with a wedding anniversary and husband’s birthday. This involved breaks from dieting as I had two meals out to celebrate the occasions. I do believe in marking things though and that you can be too strict with lifestyle things. For our anniversary we went to the Sainsbury’s Art Centre in Norwich, saw two very good exhibitions and had lunch in the cafe. Parisian photography and Parisian art. Just my kind of thing. Excellent. For husband’s birthday we went to the Dial House in Reepham. This is a Georgian house made into a swanky b and b and restaurant. The restaurant is quirky with lots of antiques dotted around. Everything is for sale including the chairs you ar sitting on. Meals are served on mismatched vintage plates. It has a certain charm. I managed to stay vegetarian with an aubergine and cheese dish. I quite enjoyed it though the food is not absolutely top notch, more rustic. I found mine lacking in flavour.
I have been dotting around the area doing various tasks. I keep getting lost on the country roads having absolutely no sense of direction. It seems like I always end up on the way to Norwich whichever way I start out. The local roads are mostly single track which has its own etiquette. I am getting the hang of it. My doctor’s appointment involved a very twisty twiny journey so it was a relief to discover at my health check that I am in perfect health. I had to celebrate by getting lost on the way back.
We are having a typically English summer with lots of rain and cloud with occasional bursts of sunshine. Is it just me or did summers used to be sunnier?
So I am bursting with health and my mood has been quite good. Health inside and out. I have been writing regularly and I feel like my characters are really taking off.
Our sewage treatment facility seems to be screwed and is now overflowing with any water usage whatsoever so I will have to have it looked at. There are perils in rural living.
My dog Didi has settled well into rural life and has now turned into a lazy bones who would rather lounge around the house and garden rather than go on long walks. I seem keener than him on the walking thing. The cat, Monty, is still too scared to go outside for some reason and is hiding in the utility room. He is a strange one.
I have bought a beautiful oak kitchen table which has chairs that look like they were hewn in a fairy tale. This fits in with my new found Mrs Tiggywinkle vibe.
All is good.
I am sticking with the Yogi Cameron Diet. Week 4 is really the same as Week 3. There is an emphasis on honesty and turning your ‘I can’t’ statements into ‘I can’. The diet is still fruit and vegetables with basmati rice. The largest meal is taken in the middle of the day and there is no eating in the evening.
I must admit to feeling really well this week. I have energy and a sense of well being. I have cheated as it was my wedding anniversary on Thursday so we went out and I had lunch in the UEA art gallery cafe. I had fish cakes so that was a Yogi Cameron no no. I also had wine on Thursday. In spite of this I still feel good. Unfortunately, I still haven’t lost any weight in spite of my vigorous yoga routine, jogging and healthy diet. This is puzzling to me.
All I can do is to be ever more draconian next week. Absolutely no cheating whatsoever. Just fruit and vegetables.